Nice way to bring up Natalia is reacting from deep fears, too ingrained by family trauma to over ride. Of course she kicked herself out of the house and ran rather than face rejection. Knowing you acting against parental prejudices may make you fear rejection, but it's always still a shock when it happens. No way to anticipate or prepare for how it feels, and what it does to your ability to trust in the love of another human as opposed to God. When living through that comes back to bite you in the ass, it bites hard.
That said, I wish I had dreams that were so clear. Hope she remembers it.
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Date: 2010-10-29 08:23 pm (UTC)That said, I wish I had dreams that were so clear. Hope she remembers it.